you go through little speedbumps, nails or potholes in the road of life…and at times it stinks… a good thing to remember is that somehow in some small way you learn and grow from everything you go through.

heartbreak… you learn to love and let go and learn from that person at that time in your life..

car issues… you learn to budget and save and that you may be broke when you fix your vehicle..but at the same time you have a car which some people aren’t blessed with these days.

friend problems… you learn who is a true friend and who is going to stick around and never just toss you away when they disagree with you…they will be there for you even if it’s just to listen.

family issues.. you learn that no matter what your family will be there for you no matter what…even when you least expect it they will..family is forever

loss of someone you love… you learn and hope that you let them know everything and that you let them know how much you loved them… or you feel like you should have said more… but one thing is for sure that person will stay with you forever and they are your guardian angel.

college/uncertain future… you learn what you really want to do and be…and that not everyone needs to go to college to be happy and you need to follow your bliss and dreams and one day you will know exactly what you need to be doing to be happy and you are never a failure.

i guess what i’m getting at right now is sometimes life is rough…and sometimes it knocks you down on your butt and you aren’t sure which way to turn and it can be complicated ….but you live for the moments that make you smile and realize how truly lucky you are to be alive and able to live and breathe and be happy in life. In this lifetime you will cry, laugh, love, lose, gain, scream and everything else..it’s best to buckle in and prepare for the ride and embrace every beautiful moment you are able to experience.

even mean either…

i find ways to not kill spiders too bad.. i try to catch them and set them free..

so i guess i’m mean right?

after a solid two months of a friend not talking to me… I wanted to confront them about it, because honestly I had no idea what I did wrong. I work with them so it made it really awkward when I would try and be nice and they would just walk away from me…

I found out that it all started from a time two months ago when I was qa (which is who gets the food out at work.. which is the most stressful job at work and you get bitched at by everyone for issues that aren’t under your control basically) so my friend was saying iw as being rude to people when I simply asked them to make sure they grabbed the dish out of the dish room on the way back from the kitchen since they are back there to make things go smoothly….which is THEIR JOB anyways…. and that lately iw as being pessimistic and she didn’t want to be around that…

okay..hold up.

I wasn’t rude to anyone.. I never am when i work… I actually like the people i work with.. i just was doing what my manager asked me to do. My position can be a sticky one in which you get yelled at by everyone and still have to keep your cool no matter who is pissed at you. I was pessimistic for a week due to my car was 1400 dollars to fix and pay my bills which total 1000 in one month… so yes.. i was a little pessimissic.. I also went through the first holiday without my stepdad which was beyond difficult to go through… was this friend there for me? No. did they understand and think to themselves fro a minute before they just stopped being my friend? No..

were they ever a real friend?

I guess not. I have my closer and i’m moving on from it all..but it hurts a lot to think they think of me this way after 6 years of knowing me.

i’m just blessed to have good people in my life that know who I really am and don’t just throw a friendship away for the hell of it.

these days..

sometimes things/friendships/jobs just life falls apart…it’s up to you in how you deal with it.. I’m now really realizing this and knowing that just because someone doesn’t like you.. it’s okay. It happens. Life happens. There isn’t any use in feeling upset or just down about it all the time… surround yourself with a good pack of friends adn stick with them when things get rough.

:)

brandonak:

loveyounomatterwhat:

Can’t Be Satisfied | Anthony Green ft. Ida Maria

Wow

I fricken love this.

I really missed seeing Mark…but enjoyed myself with good friends..one of my favorite bands and just being in my favorite city. It’s a new year so I already have some plans for it…

i just hope they fall through.. I don’t have any expectations…because I find that when you make an expectation you can get disappointed..this way I won’t be disappointed.

I really hope i can see mark this weekend..because lately even a week without him just stinks.

smile, learn , laugh and love is my motto for the year :)

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Anthony Green of Circa Survive and his son James photographed by Chris Phelps on November 20, 2011 in Doylestown, PA.

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LOve him! and honestly seeing this makes me want to be a mom.

Very optimistic these days. I’m excited to get this craft shop running”

and love myself and my flaws..

2012 is all about that.